Making life changes isn’t always easy.
Oh, it’s easy to move, redecorate, maybe even start a new job or school… at least that’s been the easy part for me. I find that I really enjoyed the “project” side of whatever new event was being created in my life, and in fact, in many ways I still do. There’s an excitement about whatever is new.
I love dreaming, creating new dreams of what I want next, and talking to others about their dreams and exploring ways of how to make them real. It’s a real passion of mine. The problem is getting lost in their dreams and then forgetting about my own.
Although I have been a serious “seeker” of spiritual pathways for more than 28 years, it was only during the last few years that I finally saw the growth from diligently working on my inner self and clearing out old ways of thinking and being that no longer served me. It’s been quite a process and it’s one I am sure will continue for the rest of my life. What changed for me? I finally stopped caring about what other people think.
That may sound mean, but it’s not.
The only person that truly has to be pleased with who I am and what I do is me.
It took me almost my entire life to finally learn that lesson. And let me tell you it feels good. Really good. Solidly good.
Now that doesn’t mean that I don’t care about other people; anyone who knows me knows that I love truly and deeply, that I have wonderful friends and family, and that I give of myself in many ways to the community. But I don’t keep those relationships because I’m expected to, or I have to. Each one of them is a choice I make because it fills my soul with happiness.
I’ve done a lot of letting go of relationships and ways of being that were hurtful, harmful, or just plain made me unhappy. Believe it or not, even though they were really no-brainer decisions when I finally saw them for what they were, it was still hard to let them go. There was a grieving process that went along with them.
Sometimes I want to run so fast into the future that I’m trying to create, that I forget to slow down and breathe. I am changing. It takes time. Breathe, Maria… breathe… The web isn’t going anywhere, yet… there’s plenty of time to grow the business. 🙂